Hello! Welcome to my blog, my name is Kate, and I will be your blogger for this evening.
When I started therapy in March of 2018, my therapist asked me if I thought I’d ever be able to write about my experiences, and I told him, flat out, no. And back then, I meant it. There was no way that I ever thought I’d be in the position where I’d be willing to publicly share my experiences.
You see, my whole life I’ve been convinced that there was something wrong with me, that I was broken. I would look around at everyone around me and they seemed so happy, whilst I was self-harming and having suicidal thoughts by the time I was eleven. I was so confused – why was I feeling this way when everyone else seemed so normal? I needed answers, but I didn’t have anyone I could reach out to, because no one in my life took my feelings seriously. I seemed to be punished every time I tried to open up, so I learned that my feelings didn’t matter. I locked them away and threw away the key. It wasn’t until I was 24 that I finally admitted that I needed help, and with the support of my husband, I was able to seek it.
And, well, here I am now. It seems that my therapist was right when he told me it could be really therapeutic to write. Ever since I started receiving therapy, I’ve been on the up, and I’m learning to be okay with myself, and to actually like myself! The horror, right?
I’m writing this blog hoping to help people through my own experiences of mental illness and trauma. I know how hard it is, I’ve been suffering with undiagnosed mental illnesses, self-harm and suicidal thoughts for more than half my life. And now I’m a big supporter of reaching out when you feel like you need it! It’s okay not to do this on your own. It doesn’t make you weak. It makes you so incredibly brave and strong.
I hope you enjoy your stay, and can experience the same freedom that I feel ❤